I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. I just didn’t feel rested. It wasn’t that anything in particular was wrong. Maybe it is just the full moon tugging on my mood, but regardless, I was not feeling like facing the day. I did my morning meditation which can usually cure a bad mood, but it didn’t fully cut it. I knew that going to work and treating my Acupuncture patients would make me feel better, so off I went. As I write this I can already hear the self talk telling me “this better turn into a happy story or no one will read it,” and in spite of the “voices”, I’m going to keep writing.
I ended up with a gap between patients and decided to do another 20 minute sit to see if that would help, and it did. I was finally able to become truly present to what I was feeling. It wasn’t “all good,” but I realized that I needed to feel and process some not-so-fun feelings. I was able to pay attention to them and allow them to come through and right underneath I found gratitude. Gratitude for my life and my patients. Gratitude that I am able to do what I love and help people I love to heal themselves. Suddenly a new definition of success dropped into my consciousness.
By simply being aware and not trying to cling to beliefs or ideas of how we think things should be, we are succeeding. Whether we are sitting poolside with friends or sitting in the chair at the dentists office, we are succeeding if we are present because in the presence of what really is as opposed to what the fear, false beliefs, or “voices” are telling us, we find the truth of who we are. Peaceful, scared, brave, powerful, loving and sometimes even crabby beings hide a stillness within. A perfectly magnificent and grateful being that is always there and always present. All we need to do is tune in to the present moment. It’s all there is. Success at last!
